i take into consideration the things i wanted most but cant get enough strength to really want it. its not what i used to be doing. I'm a coward to describe it. I'm so tired of everyday routine, sleeping, eating, surfing the net, be a jerk, cook, eat again, watch, rest. its utterly insane!i cant do anything that would make my life different, or better i think. I'm as abused as what my mind always does, not literally but it makes me furious. of all the things in this world which will make me a better person, i cant find it!its frustrating. do you ever had a feeling of being frustrated because you cant put all the words and thoughts in your mind together? im breakable but not anyone could see it. its like im as strong as the worlds greatest survivor, but im not!
